It is actually very difficult to get rid of the pain in your own body that is caused by the others. The Others do it, all the time. They do it over and over again and they successfully take away what could be yours, what is a positive value in its essence.

They do this to some persons more than others, and they manage to exclude the people who are more honest, more successful. At the same time, they become able to create their own ‘sameness’. It has to be ‘the same’. Therefore, all too easily, fake forms of identity are created. There aren’t very few persons who get involved in recreating their own identities. And sadly, it has nothing to do with a spa day, or a holiday, or anything recreational. Recreation has more to do with narcotics, with marijuanna, and other materials alike. On my part, i worry too much about sugar. Yesterday I have reduced the amount of my sugar intake. It is such a novelty in my life, to have clear crystals at home. Is it good to be ‘crystal clear’? 🙂 I had to write about other crystal materials which were used for large scale drug trafficking, before I started hearing the people I loved and trusted lying to me. First, these groups of persons establish their own relations. You get to love them, you get to find the familiarities, between you and your memories, and all the other things one can remember… It is book-wise to know that the British Muslims had a problem of being excluded from the society, and running into the arms of one or more harmful organisations. During all these processes, of thought transformation, its elevation and reduction, there are many stages. And the process is not linear, by definition. They make you feel, different things. They make you feel alone, as if there are no other persons in the world like you. That no other men or women had not been attacked, had not been a victim of terror and that terrorism is not a group crime.

For many years in my life, i tried to understand social emotions. I did get the idea that there could be things which were wrong, which would take a lot of time to change. Throughout the process, the identity of the thinker has been important too. One cannot develop a position of professional thinking for oneself, in an academic world which is obsessed with identities. It is very common, today, in the developed world too, not to care too much about work and be reduced to a category of lack of quality. It works, not having quality at work. It works even better in international relations. As a field, it has more to do with appearances than another. Not so much about the world cultures, not really about authenticity and communication. These are ideas which escape us, the lack of which plagues the social…

The new aggressor is the old aggressor. There are many, it’s not just one man. For many years by now, the invisible hand got me followed, physically, by many female drivers. Transport is a huge issue in my current part of the world. I realise that from the outside, it seems like a luxury… But I don’t have another choice. You always end up having to trust something invisible, something unreachable, to protect you from the random will of the angry drivers on the road. The aggressive sections of the society are so very able to use their cars as they wish. My new aggressor has chosen to attack me with his own body. He gets you thinking when he abuses you, keeps shouting at you while you were cooking at your home. It could look like they did not try to harm Baby Cuddle. They just go against anything good, and successfully gather together. Especially around the idea of ‘blood’. They love being blood, being close, the incest, the relations which cannot change, while they so profoundly hate each other and pretend to constitute the ‘civilisation’. Is it blood sanguinis? Yes. They crack up children, in their hateful relations, and start appearing to have moral lives. It is exactly what the terrorist group controlling me should change. Together with their names.